Despite all the wrong, all the hurt, lies and negitive whatevers, this is so damn hard. I miss it all. Fuck if that's wrong and backwards. Fuck what I've said. This hurts more than anything ever has, ever. I don't know what anything means or what to do besides live each day hoping the next is easier.

Just wish I could say it all to you, there's just no way I know how to.

Woe as me, it's my own fault. Get over it asshole.


-- d